i was 18 years old the first time i found out i was pregnant. i was newly in college and in a relationship with an emotionally abusive guy.

i became pregnant with my first child last year in my late 30's! i was elated and filled with an unexplained amount of love for this being simply for being a part of me. i didn't know that my heart can open so big.

in 2012, i was 18 years old, a freshman at the university of san francisco. on november 07, 2012 i found out that i was pregnant by my high school boyfriend of 2 years. as i stood there in walgreens bathroom staring down at the pregnancy test, i couldn't register what i was looking at.

i was 22 when i started dating my current boyfriend. we quickly fell in love with each other and became inseparable. because of our close connection, i trusted the pull out method when we had sex. it wasn't more than 3 months since we'd been having sex when i became pregnant, but i didn't find out until almost 2 months (7 weeks to be precise) later.

i’ve been dreading today nearly as much as i’m fearing tomorrow.

i was 18 when i had an abortion. it was the hardest choice i've ever made.